Hope for your journey

I have been missing in action since last year, I couldn't help let the emotional ups and downs of loss affect my inspiration, BUT not McKennah, she began this blog because she felt that her diagnosis would NOT take away from the goals of her life here in this world. I pray in some way my sharing will continue to encourage and point our readers to the One who heals the broken hearted.

She was determined to be transparent and even when she was in the depth of her treatments and despair to share the hope in her heart. She completely dug deep into her relationship with Jesus. There is nothing more terrifying as a teen looking toward a bright and exciting future to be told your entire body is filled with cancerous tumors. What do you do?

What did she do? She determined in her heart that with whatever time she had she would let her life reflect the depth of who Jesus is and how that relationship could blossom in the darkest moments in your life.

We can't live this life without some pain and disappointment. Whether it's the loss of a loved one or a diagnosis, none of us will get out of this life untouched. Where do you get the strength to endure?

I am not the one to give advice, however their is hope and strength in the one who created us for his purpose and in his image and with a heart that feels the brokenness of loss. Whether it be a death, a diagnosis or the loss of a relationship with a loved one.

I have been trying to pick up where McKennah left off, my emotions get in the way and a lot of self doubt. She had such a following on this platform; so what if no one is that interested in what I can add? But, I know her spirit is strong and resides in my heart now and forever. If you’re one of her many friends or followers then you know she left an impression on everyone she met.

So much life in her body and soul.

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Now, where does this leave me? It’s been over two years since Mckennah left this earth. Ray and I are staying in California with the excellent support system we have here. And I had every intention of posting here on a consistent basis. My journey has had quit a few distractions and I have been feeling like maybe there isn’t enough people that want to follow this blog; now that the original author has moved on to glory. She had so many more followers then I have seen. However, I think my continuing this blog is something that God has put on my heart.

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I don’t want to make this blog too long; we all have busy lives. There is so many wonderful journals I would like to share some of my own thoughts and where I have found hope and energy to survive my grief journey.

One special place I have found support and connection is with the mothers of an organization called:

Umbrella Ministries was crated with this mission: Reaching out to the hurts and hearts of mothers who have experienced the loss of child.

The friendship and recourses they provide have made a huge difference in my grief journey. There are some losses that will never be completely understood but knowing your not alone helps give perspective to our own hurting hearts. The ministry is growing and will reach more mothers this year through local meetings as well as their annual Journey of the Heart, weekend retreats. Please consider a financial gift to this ministry in honor of McKennah.

umbrellaministries.com

Donations help grieving mothers with the cost of attending these events.

Let me leave you today with a poem from McKennah,

When the lessons have been learned,

When the sun has forever set,

The things my heart had mourned

The things we grieved with lashes wet

As the stars shine brighter against a darker night

I see how God's plans are right

What seems to be loss

is really Love most true.

Sometimes, when all life's lessons have been learned,

And sun and stars evermore have set

The things in which, our weak judgments here have spurned.

The things we grieved with lashes wet,

will flash before us out of life's dark night.

As stars shine in a deeper tinge of blue,

and we see how God's plans are right,

and how what seemed an evil report, is love most true.